Tuesday, October 15, 2013

National Pregnancy & Infant Loss Rememberance Day

In honor of this day I wanted to write a post. The problem is - I've done it.  So I decided I'm just going to repost.

This initial post gives it more context though: Miscarriages.







25 Oct 2011
Post: Balloons

This is a place Drew says he used to come to sometimes as a teenager when he wanted to be alone and sit by the river. It’s about 15 miles outside of town.

Yes, Wyoming already looks like winter. I know you were thinking that… In fact it was pouring rain as we left town and got on the interstate and just as we pulled up to the river it stopped raining. Just a stray rain drop now and then.

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This is what 60 balloons looks like in a bunch (that’s a rain drop on the picture).

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My friend at the store that did the balloons (she’s the floral department manager) put in one “It’s a Girl” balloon and one “It’s a Boy” balloon. I was surprised how right that felt. It was a great idea.

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I took the balloons from Drew and held them all at once. He put his arms around me and said a prayer. Then I pulled the balloons more down around me. For just a minute they were all around me and I stood there and cried. Then I started letting them go one at a time.

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Just as we got back in the car and started to drive away again, it started pouring. It felt like an acknowledgement from Heavenly Father of what we were doing there. It was very sweet.

I’m amazed at how much better I feel having done that. Lighter some how.

I ordered the fabric to make the quilt right before we left. I have a poem that’s going to go on the back of it in the corner. I found this image of it the other day…

Monday, October 7, 2013

A Life Uncommon

It was a rough weekend emotionally. I'm a little raw from it.

So I'm driving along. Taking my girls to the library (we seriously have the best library ever. We stayed for three hours!). And I turn on the CD in my car. It's a Jewel CD that I have had FOREVER. I know every word to every song. And yet somehow this song was all new to me today. So I'm singing along and just started to cry as I drive (almost ran a red light too).

It's perfect. It spoke to my soul today - which sounds totes dramatic but it really did.




Lyrics

Don’t worry mother
It’ll be alright
And don’t worry sister
Say your prayers and sleep tight
And it’ll be fine
Lover of mine
It’ll be just fine

And lend your voices only
To sounds of freedom
No longer lend your strength
To that which you wish
To be free from
Fill your lives
With love and bravery
And you shall lead
A life uncommon

I’ve heard your anguish
I’ve heard your hearts cry out
We are tired, we are weary
But we aren’t worn out
Set down your chains
Until only faith remains
Set down your chains

And lend your voices only
To sounds of freedom
No longer lend your strength
To that which you wish
To be free from
Fill your lives
With love and bravery
And we shall lead
A life uncommon

There are plenty of people
Who pray for peace
But if praying were enough
It would’ve come to be
Let your words enslave no one
And the heavens will hush themselves
To hear our voices ring our clear
With sounds of freedom
Sounds of freedom

Come on you unbelievers
Move out of the way
There is a new army coming
And we are armed with faith
To live, we must give
To live

And lend our voices only
To sounds of freedom
No longer lend our strength
To that which we wish
To be free from
Fill your lives
With love and bravery
And we shall lead...

And lend our voices only
To sounds of freedom
No longer lend our strength
To that which we wish
To be free from
Fill your lives
With love and bravery
And we shall lead
A life uncommon 

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I started to bold the parts that spoke to me but it was almost all bold so I gave up.

So my fellow MoFems especially - we've had a hard weekend. I hope this soothes your soul in the same way it soothed my own. My love to you!

Friday, October 4, 2013

What I think...

If you're not interested in Mormon politics and religious establishment inner workings... you might want to skip this post. lol

What I think about Ordain Women:

I'd actually really love to eloquently tell you what I think but I'm still studying. I didn't become aware of this movement soon enough to have fallen firmly on one side or the other. I am doing my duty and diligently studying the issue.

I believe as LDS people this is, in fact, our duty. We are supposed to study issues, learn what we can, study it out in our minds, and THEN pray about it.

I have gotten this far - I absolutely - without doubt - support their right to do what they are currently doing. If you study church history there are many examples of change within the church coming "from the bottom up". In fact, all through all kinds of history, change nearly always comes from the bottom.That's fairly common knowledge.

What I cannot understand is the nasty vehemence that is literally being spewed at this group and at anyone who supports them. I am truly baffled by this. Do these people belong to the same church I do??? I just can't wrap my mind around telling someone to "just deal with it" or "why don't you just leave the church?" Leave the church? Really?

So. In a gospel where we preach that we are brothers and sisters, that we are all children of God, that our singular purpose is to make our way back to our Father in Heaven, to help each other on that path and live together forever.... an acceptable reaction is "just leave the church?"

To me the idea is to study and to learn where people are coming from. If you love someone and you believe in this gospel - you meet them where they are. You find a way to bridge the gap between you. You do NOT eject them. You do NOT reject that.

Ugh. I have to stop talking about that part. I'm getting so mad.

I will tell you some things I absolutely believe - Our church needs to make some changes. Women have more purpose than to make babies (aka more members of the church) and bring each other bread. We have more purpose than the roles we are given right now.

Here is a post my sister wrote for Rational Faiths: If the Sisters Should Have Faith to Heal... I love it because she references quotes and factual information. And those things absolutely back up the following change list.

I like the changes suggested here:
  • Encourage partnership in marriage and eliminate the idea that husbands preside over their wives.

  • Create parity in the Young Women and Young Men organizations through equivalent budgets, educational programs (leadership, career, and spiritual training,) and activities (sports, service, and outdoor events).

  • Balance the stories and images of boys and men in church publications, talks, and other media with stories and images of girls and women.

  • Invite women in Church leadership positions to speak and pray during General Conference in numbers equal to the participation of men.

  • Encourage leaders to use gender-inclusive language whenever possible.

  • Recognize that girls and boys, women and men are equally responsible for appropriate sexual behavior, and avoid reducing morality to sexuality, and modesty to a preoccupation with women’s and girls’ clothing.

  • Instruct bishops to refrain from asking Church members probing questions about sexual practices and experiences.

  • Call women to perform pastoral counseling, particularly for women and girls who have been sexually abused.

  • Choose a General Relief Society Presidency and General Board that reflect the diversity of viewpoint and circumstance in the Church, and establish frequent meetings between the First Presidency and the General Relief Society Presidency.

  • Include the Stake Relief Society President in Stake Presidency meetings, and appoint women to meet with the High Council.

  • Delegate more expansive supervisory authority to the Stake and Ward Relief Society, Young Women, and Primary presidencies, including approval of personnel, programs, and activities.

  • Include women among stake and ward leaders who hear evidence and offer judgment in Church disciplinary councils.

  • Include the local Relief Society president in all bishopric meetings, and rotate the planning of Sacrament services among the Relief Society president and members of the bishopric.

  • Examine all Church positions to determine whether they can be filled without regard to gender.

  • Appoint women as presidents of Church universities and heads of administrative departments.

  • Expand hiring practices in the Seminaries and Institutes of Religion and within the religion departments at Church universities to provide women the same placement, advancement, and tenure opportunities as men.

  • Call young women as well as young men to serve missions at the same age and for the same length of time, and afford women the same opportunity as men to function as district leaders, zone leaders, and assistants to the president.

  • Lift the prohibition on women's participation in the blessing of their children.

  • Change temple marriage policies so that men and women have equal opportunity to be sealed to their second spouses after they are widowed or divorced.

  • Consider further wording changes to temple ceremonies and ordinances such that both men and women make the same covenants and enjoy the same promises.

  • Recognize women as witnesses for baptisms and marriage sealings.

  • Restore the former institutionally-accepted practice of women giving blessings of healing and comfort.
So there. I stand behind that list. And I stand behind my sisters who are trying to make the changes - peacefully, correctly, kindly trying to make the changes. They are brave and amazing. Especially in the face of so much unkindness. My thoughts and prayers will be with them as they travel to SLC (from near and from across the ocean!) to stand peacefully outside of the priesthood session. I will be watching. I will be praying. I wish I could be there to lend my support in person!

I also really love this post: I Am My Sister's Keeper. I say amen to that post. I *am* my Sister's Keeper and they are my sisters.

And my prayer will include this post: Listen. Please please Listen.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

October!

I feel a sense of excitement at the beginning of October. From this point forward the year seems to go by so fast! Football season is in full swing. Kids are in school. Life is churning along (unless you work for the government today. That's another story...).

And the planning is beginning. I love and dread that part. I have Birthday List (Leah) going and Christmas Lists - stockings and presents. The girls and I already went shopping and got all their Halloween costume stuff. They're such fun little girls.

Although they wanted to choose things from Monster High and I had to put the smack down on that. Ugly and expensive? No.

I just remembered I forgot to check on my fantasy football team this week. Crap. What if I had Bye Week players on? Oops. *Update - I checked my team. Sure enough there was a bye week player. In comforting news it wouldn't have won me the match to have switched with my benched player. I lost by 6 points. If I'd switched I would have lost by 2.5 points. Lame. Ready for next week now though!

Anyway - as we were. Yay fall! Bring on the (gluten free, corn free, peanut free) pumpkin treats! Bring on the Halloween to celebrate our love of candy (I'm such a good diabetic!). Bring on the food abundance of Thanksgiving! Bring on the love and joy and fun and family of it all! And then bring on Christmas! The fun joy and excitement of Christmas. I love getting to be at my mom's house for Christmas break. The relaxed feeling of getting to be with people who get me & know me. Wonderful stuff.

However - feel free to mourn with me about the fact that we have a chance of snow on Friday. Wyoming - Yay? Leah is really excited though. And watching her excitement  about anything is always fun.

Fall in Wyoming:

I put "Fall in Wyoming" into google images. This was a result. That's the truth right there.


Do you love Fall? What are your favorite parts?